There is a blog that I follow quite regularly. It is called The Journey. It is about a girl who left her home in the United States at 19, moved to Uganda, and began adopting children. Three years later, she is a mother of many. She has not wealth, luxury, and I imagine that at times her life is uncomfortable. But she has joy and love and purpose, and she inspires me.
On Katie's blog, there is a song. The chorus begins: "Now that I have seen, I am responsible." I realized, today, while hearing this song, that over the last few months, I have struggled with a fear of seeing, and thus being responsible. In the initial excitement that was the revelation that I could be used by God, I was eager to see the world in all its suffering in order to understand my responsibility to it. But as the dust settled and I lived life normally again, there was a temptation, and even desire, to ignore what I had discovered and to live on in ignorance of the things I did not want to know about. I questioned, do I want to see? Because once I have seen, I am responsible.
I am convinced now more than ever that I made the right decision, three months ago, to step out in faith on this journey to India. Now, three weeks before we go, I feel ready. There is something that Katie talks about all the time on her blog, and it is how she "sees Jesus" in the faces of the people around her. I cannot wait to see Jesus in the faces of the people of India.
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